I am sitting here worrying and feeling like a lousy parent as my child takes the SAT.
Like most of the East, child was snowed out of SAT in January and rescheduled for today. She woke up sick and exhausted. I sent her to the tests.
She has been out of the house 18+ hour days (school and prescheduled ECs that she committed before SATs were delayed- performances that can not be missed) for the past 10-12 days - weekend and Presidents Day included. She did not have the option of skipping.
She woke up this morning with a headache and sore throat (sick or voice strain?) --- just completely wiped out. She took some Dayquill and we sent her off to those ridiculous tests. I feel horrible. Now that I have found CC, I have started worrying about 10 more points and merit cut offs (impt.) and being competitive. The parent I was 2 months ago before discovering the college rat race would have kept her home and reminded her that she had one great test score under her belt (initial test taken cold with no prep - but certainly respectable). Instead, I told her that in the real world people power through when they are sick and exhausted and she has tomorrow to relax. From the tests I will take her directly to the theater for her matinee performance (she will be late for call but will make the performance) and then she has another tonight. She will eat at the theater and will not return home until after 11 again tonight.
I am now sitting here imagining the worst. I am worried about having to make the decision of canceling the scores for a test that I forced her to take. Not even sure how we make that decision after she endures sitting for 4 hours in the testing situation. If her scores do go down, or don't go up to the level of her practice tests, they will be part of the test record and call into question her ability to do well at college.
I am also imaging how she is going to power through 2 shows on such little sleep and with no mental reserves. This was a parenting fail.
I just needed to get this out - sorry for the whine fest.
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