I'll try to keep this as short as possible. So basically I'm going through the toughest times I've ever gone through in my 20 years of life. I've always been a gloomy/moody person but at the same time was cheery kid. I never could tell anyone about my depression or anxiety because I would hate thinking about what would they think of me? How would they react? I've been quiet about it until recently (couple months ago) when I tried to take my life. I seeked counseling in hopes of mayne getting better but I've only gotten worse. I have 0 motivation in anything now. I hate having to go to school, I don't want to talk to anyone, I don't even want to live. literally i just want to stay in bed or just not exist. This has obviously effected my school life. To make things worse, is that I go by a quarterly system which makes classes much shorter than semesters. Ever since last quarter my grades started to drop. I failed my first ever class and withdrew from a class. I had both my dog die, and my girlfriend break up with me that semester I just broke down.I felt like crap all the time and gave up. Now I'm failing 2 out of 3 classes and am not sure what I should do since I basically only have 2 weeks of school left. one of those three I made pass/no pass because there is no way of me passing the class anymore. For my other 2 I still have a good chance of passing with C's or even B's on my other 2 classes but with my level of motivation and lack of knowledge it would be hard to impossible.I feel like garbage my parents both went to excellent schools and graduated with outstanding grades. Im just barely scraping by. To make things even worse is that I would have to re-appeal for financial aid due to my lack of credits these past 2 semesters. I'm still technically a incoming sophomore even though I'm already at my 3rd year here. My grades freshman year were really high and luckily I'm not in academic probation but am in probation. Ive accepted my fate of graduating a year later or more but still I don't know what to do. I'm taking summer classes back home far away from where I am for college. Have you guys personally experienced this, or had a child, friend, etc... go through this? I guess I'm just looking for comfort in my crap life so any advice, negative or positive would be greatly appreciated. Thanks.
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