I wouldn't necessarily say that I've failed. I withdrawled from almost all of my classes except for one which i don't start until next week.
Let me give you a little idea of what's been going on in my life. It mostly started with math class(college math and stats). When I start to feel any type of stress or anxiety I will procrastinate until the last second. I had a 6 page math project due and I waited til the last second to do it and then ended up skipping class. She said it was fine and to scan the project onto my computer and send it to her via email... easy right? Nope. I waited until the day before my next class to send it to her which she told me that she was giving me a zero because it was due on that day(Wednesday and I send it Monday around 5am) and I had plenty of time to send it to her. Do I have a good reason for what I did? No. I moved on from this with high hopes that I can do better. I had a math test which I also waited til the last second to study for and ended up studying the wrong thing and getting a 30% on it. After that, I gave up and withdrawled from the course. I also, had skipped a good amount of classes which also is a reason I had to withdrawal.
The next class is first year seminar. Like, really? Out of all classes.... this is literally a piece of cake. Nope. I went to the first day of class and then didn't show up for the next three classes bc I was always too tired or just didn't feel like going. It was a late class at like 6pm. I ended up showing up to the next class and then the lady teaching the class told me I need to withdrawl from the course because there was literally only one more class left and I had miss too much time.
So, after all this. I start to think that there is something wrong with me mentally. My anxiety is spiraling out of control. I'm constantly overthinking. I'm starting to get depression. I went to my doctor and told him my problems and he diagnosed me with add and I started taking veyvance like 3 weeks or so ago.
I was feeling extremely sick from the medicine and had missed two days of my English class. Then, I fell behind, didn't do the homework, and decided to miss another class.. I emailed him and asked if I could still come next class and he said yes but to make sure all my work is done.. Next class comes. I did not even open my bookbag so, I didn't go to class. So, today, I had to withdrawl from English because I missed too much time.
I don't feel like this medicine has helped me one bit. That's not the point. I just want to know that I'm not alone and if anyone has had similar problems and or suggestions to overcome whatever is going on?
How do I tell my friends/family what I've done?
Will my college let me stay another semester?
I know that I need to figure out what's going on with myself before i do anything but I'm so lost.
Need guidance please.
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