I'm going to fail one of my classes. However I understand what I did wrong it's just that I don't have enough time to bring up the course. I'm still planning to go to every class and take notes to better prepare myself for next quarter to retake it.
However my parents are very, very disappointed in me and I don't blame them. My stomach churns when I think about them and I definitely feel very guilty. They tell me that I've ruined any chance of getting into a good grad or professional school and they have a habit of telling me that I'm going to work for *insert the person who I admire but also kinda envious of* and I won't ever be respected and be looked down upon society. They also tell me that I'm being very shameful.
But this is also my first quarter and I'm starting from the beginning of the textbook to sort out all the holes in the subject I've accumulated the past quarter. I see that there's a lot. Even if I could go with a C I don't know if I would really want to because of how big the holes I've created.
But they don't understand that and maybe I'm just fooling myself.
Maybe I just **** up. There was a college with a program I've always wanted to go to for a very long time. It's very prestigious and it's at the top of the game of the field I wanted to enter. I feel like this is HS all over again. I didn't prepare for the summer and just moped around and now I'm just this utter failure.
I was just wondering how parents (particularly ones with high expectations) would act.
What sort of advice would you give me?
Part of making this post is I wanted to rant because all of my friends were cruising through this quarter and it just embarrassed me even more.
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